Well, last night I had a JW dream. It went like this:
I was inside my home when I hear the door bell ring. I open the door, and there was an older gentlemen offering WT literature. However, he was not holding the literature, but had the literature spread out on the ground, very neatly and in rows, as a display, on my porch ready for my viewing.
The kindly older man waved his arms towards the literature like a car salesmen presenting a new car for me to inspect. In a soft spoken voice, he stated that he was a JW, and was offering the literature and I was free to pick one.
I walked around the literature, and face to face, I asked him if he was an elder. His eyes lit up, and with a smile he said “yes, I am.” I told him I DA’ed myself about two years ago. He replied that he could help me, If I wanted. I felt the need at this point to relate to him all my concerns, issues and feelings related to my life as an ex JW. I then proceeded to tell him about Silent Lambs, the Franz books and even JW.com. It seemed that I was just talking and talking, on and on. All the time, this man just continued to listen with a slight reassuring grin on his face. When I finished, he said very softly and reassuringly, “I can help you, if you just give Jehovah a chance.” I lowered my head and started back to my door way, I mumbled “yea, right!.” as I turned around and looked up, he ascended up to the sky, yelling “I will come back to you with encouragement and light” then he was gone!
I don’t usually remember my dreams. However, this was so vivid, so real. My emotions were going full blast. And to top it off, I have felt the need to relate this to you all. Am I going nuts?
