Well, you guys have given me something to think about. I wasn't too zealous myself about things like field service or getting privileges. But I also really believed that it had to be the truth, so I felt very sincere even though I was certainly leading a double life in some areas.
I probably have a lingering degree of resentment towards the kids who just didn't care and left at 18, because as a teen I was busting my butt trying to live up to the standards, until I finally gave up in my 20s. Later, of course, I realized it was all for nothing. But in the meantime I almost killed myself over not being able to follow all the rules, while other kids were just coasting through their teens as JW without giving a ____.
So in a sense I'm envious of their approach to dealing with being born-ins, even if I don't know that they had the right motives.