So my wife and my parents are at their convention today. this will be the first time in my life that i will not have seen a drama or baptism. i will miss the public address, i will not see many of my lifelong friends that i have moved away from. it took me awhile to get started this morning, im going to be heading to the gym but i just received this text from my mom.
"I just wanted to tell you, Dad and I love you, (my wife) loves you and all your friends love you, as does Jehovahs. Please don't throw it all away."
my mom has never talked to me like this before and it kind of hit me hard today. it amazes me how much my decision to simply stop attending meetings has affected them. i would like to be part of my old social network, i had real friends and while it was "the truth" that brought us together, the friendships that developed over a lifetime were real. they would still be real except for this manmade barrier that is engrained in the minds of JWs, this barrier that tells a person that when their friend does not fit into the mold, they are spiritually "weak". the alarms go off in their mind, and the isolation process begins. no more conversations, no more invites, the defective cog must be left alone, maybe it will be fixed, maybe not, leave it alone so it wont rub off on others.
its a tough process to go through, to leave this religon/cult. i have been very careful so as not to incriminate myself in various conversations, but that is what is so ingenious about this cult. it forces ones that learn TTATT that do not want to be df/ed, to keep queit. the ones that dont, obviously we know what happens.
open discourse, dangerous indeed.
its a nice day outside, i think im gonna go enjoy it.