@Laika i did lead a very worldy (lots of sex, drugs and rock & roll) life for 65% of my past life. So to be honest ,.. no i dont feel any guilt or pressure anymore. I made a choice and changed my whole life, changed my complete circle of friends and acquaintances, broke with all addictions and bad influences. Now i feel free, happy and satisfied. I have less stress and great things to look forward. I enjoy teaching people biblical knowledge. I became part of a big 'family' of brothers and sisters with whom i spend a lot of time in private. We do a lot of in- and outdoor activities with our congregation and have a lot of fun.
Although i have a great job i do like my 'volunteer work' in the Kingdom Hall and outside in field service better. I am not yet in the position to do this volunteer work fulltime but my goal is to do just that in the near future.
Laika, during my past life i had about everything a man could have, loads of money, a beautiful wife, children a great house, cars , vacations to everywhere on this planet etc etc but i was never as happy as i am today.
With the same wife and kids but with less money, a smaller house, fewer cars and only one vacation to another country a year. Just like Benny i made a choice and changed my life... and although there are no parrots, volcanoes and pretty jungles and waterfalls overhere i am as happy as he is and feel the same.