by Faithful Witness 15 Replies latest jw experiences
Glad you had a nice visit!
"She is planning to bring me some magazines."- Will she allow you to give her some of your literature? snowballs chance in hell of that! I would tell her if she expects you to read her rags then she must read whatever you give to her if not then keep the cult literature out of your house and away from your precious children.
Carla: I appreciate that thought. I am not afraid to read the literature, and I share my perceptions of the articles, on occasion. Some of the things I say and ask, are actually making her think. She knows I am in an in-depth study of the book of Matthew with BSF right now, and always perks up her ears when I share a tidbit of something I read.
I want her to know that I am well aware of the things she is reading and parroting from the WT magazine. She asked me if I was still getting the mags, I suspect, because I had not made any comments about current issues. I think there is at least a little part of her that still wants to get a reality check once in awhile. She knows something is not quite right, although she hasn't said so directly. Her remarks give her away. There is still an awake person inside there, fighting to get past the controls being placed on her by the WTS, my sister and my dad. I would like to be her safe place, and if I understand what she is going through a little better, then she feels she can make express herself to me, hopefully someday. I won't tell the elders.
I told her how happy we were that she came to visit, and that I don't want to say anything that will make her think I am "bad." I am doing what I can to keep her closer and trusting me, even if it means being willing to listen to their false information. I'm keeping myself informed of what is happening inside, as much as possible for an outsider.
If my agreeing to accept magazines, will get her to come over and spend the night (which means skipping field service the next day)... it's worth it to me. My kids will never buy into JW deception.
Knowing that she will be bringing me the literature, I can do my "homework" ahead of time. When she gives me the mags, I will actually look inside and notice something interesting, comment on something no one has said inside the KH... maybe even something she was thinking, but knew she would not be allowed to say to anyone. This could be an opportunity for me to let her know more explicitly that I am here, and that she can trust me with her doubts. Like I said, I won't tell!
Stellar job! I note that you are now aware of the two personas fighting for dominance in your mom, and you are getting adept at flipping her back to her genuine self.
She said, "I need to go out in service. I've really been slacking!" I'm not sure the intention of that statement, which she has made a few times in the past. - Faithful Witness
That's the cultist talking, guilt. You can reassure her that there is always next week, and you are sure that Jehovah understands. Hubby is very much the same and only very recently has he admitted that he doesn't like field service. Well, there's not much point of being a Witness if you don't want to go door-to-door any more.
Let time and love do it's work.
Faithful Witness - We talked a little bit about this, and I did pose the question, "So, do you think the GB speaks for God?" She did not even take a breath before saying, "Yes. I do." Scary. Oops. i found the switch to her cult persona, but we quickly got back to normal dinner conversation and visiting with the kids.
Hi Faithful Witness, You are doing great recognizing how to turn off and off your mother's cult persona. I'm glad that you, your family, and your Mom had a great time together. I hope that you have many more.
When your relationship is more secure and after your Mom starts asking you more questions, you should ask that same question again, but then ask her where it is written in the Bible. At one time didn't the Pharisees and Sadducees represent God on earth and spoke for God to Jews, but than Jesus Christ came. Why would God want an organization of imperfect men to represent him when he has the Holy Spirit to communicate directly with people?
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,
Robert
FW: Glad you had a great visit. Thanks for the update!!!
You rock. I'm proud of both of you because you love and appreciate each other enough to not let your differences matter more than your love.
That is really a thing to be thankful of for both of you
Michelle
