Well I finally ordered Crisis of Conscience. Even though I've been DA'd since 1989 the truth is that I always considered it to still be the truth up until a couple of years ago when I started researching more through sites like this. I never got around to getting my hands on that book though, and now can't wait until it arrives.
Funny though how the mind control thing can work even over 10 years after you're out though. Thanks to the internet though I was finally able to de-program myself. Hopefully any doubters and lurkers out there will take the time to do the research for themselves much sooner then I did so as not to walk around for a good 11 years thinking that you're just doomed if you don't go back.