Welcome mysticalwolf40 to JWN.
Why did you shut the door on the JWs before and not this time? Did you like the JW at the door this time and not before? Is the person who introduced you to the Watchtower the same person who is conducting Bible studies with you?
Most members on JWN love JWs because they are family and/or former friends, but do not like the policies and doctrines of the Watchtower. I agree with other JWN members that you should read articles on www.JWfacts.com, and if you want to learn more about how the Watchtower trains JWs to recruit members, please Read Steve Hassan's book "Combatting Cult Mind Control" or visit his website at www.freedomofmind.com and read the information on that website and watch the videos there. By the way Steve Hassan was a Moonie and did not even know about JWs and the Watchtower when he wrote his first book.
I hope that you critically think for yourself and read articles on JWfacts and "Combatting Cult Mind Control". A former JW friend tried to recruit me to be a JW. When I started asking her questions about Watchtower propaganda, she wrote to me saying "I'm not encourageed" and stopped being friends with me. I wish that someone had suggested to me to read Steve Hassan's books when I first joined JWN.
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,