Not knowing your age, sex, living conditions, if you have a job ? Hard to respond. Are you in Canada? or the UK , both places have full medical care available. Do you have anything you like to do? Example: I went swimming today at the Kits saltwateer, outdoor pool, here in Vancouver, it was swimming under the beautiful sky and clouds, and huge pool was practically empty in the morning, it was heavenly. I get into painting and that relaxes me also. I take a camp chair and watercolors and find a beautiful garden and paint the scene and meditate on the beauty of the flowers. I go sit in coffee shops to be around people with no pressure. There are lots of interesting and kind people everywhere and clubs you join. I volunteered with a community Center here and found working with children very uplifting. Yes its going to be a long transition, but just keep reaching out, and going out and find some structure in your life and somthing to do.