Gregg, I am so sorry for the pain you have been in this past while. I am glad you have an old friend like Ray Publisher, for support.
The Funeral for your ex-wife is probably over. Stay sober. Don't go off the wagon now. You are doing so well. All roads have bumps, and twists and turns. Take care of your health. Take care of your heart. Take walks on the beach, climb the hills, sing your songs. Your children will need you when they wake up to TTATT. Don't fall apart! Do not loose hope!
There is life still out there for you Gregg. When you fall in love, like all of us, you hope it will be forever. What if the 3rd one is the "Charm"? The 3rd one won't be a JW, I think we all know that. lol You have lots of good women out there to choose from. You just have to get out there and meet them. You didn't expect to be 50 years old, in this "system". But you are. Rejoice in it. You really have much to be thankful for. Have a rest, get your exercise, refocus. It's a new day.
Hugs to You and to All of us that have lost family members in death and to this Cult, and find themselves feeling adrift, with not many Friends.
(((((((((((((((((((((Hugs to you Gregg...and to All of us...)))))))))))))))))))))))
Just Lois