In Memory of my nephew Kristian!

by Beck_Melbourne 20 Replies latest jw friends

  • greven

    my sincerest regards!

    I am very very sorry.


    "Fear is strange soil. Mainly it grows obedience like corn, which grows in rows and makes weeding easy. But sometimes it grows the potatoes of defiance, which flourish underground."
    -from "Small Gods" by Terry Pratchett-

  • Prisca


    I am so sorry to hear of your family's loss. It is very hard for those left behind when a person suicides, especially when there is no indication why they took such a desperate step.

    My aunt suicided back in the 80s. She had battled manic depression for many years, but no one realised she had any intention of taking her own life. She was in her mid-60s and a very loving grandmother. She was a beautiful woman, with sparkling blue eyes and a good sense of humour.

    She left several notes to her family as a way of explaining why she did what she'd done. It was her way of saying goodbye.

    And I have to admit there have been black periods in my life when I've wanted to end it all. Even to the point of praying to God, asking that I could die in my sleep.

    I am now over those bleak times, but we should be on the alert for any strange or unusual behaviour from anyone, even if we don't think there would be a reason for them to be down. We don't always know what is going through people's minds, so showing a little ounce of love and care could help prevent someone taking that desparate step.

  • Francois

    I'm terribly sorry, Beck. Suicide always leaves so many people stunned and with questions that will never be answered.

    About 25 years ago, I came very, very close. It seemed that I was cornered, with no way out, and no one could understand it. I was severely depressed and in a state of high anxiety. I could see no way out of my predicament, and to make matters worse, I was asshole over appetite in love with a new woman. But I was willing to leave her too with no answers. I already had a 12 guage shotgun loaded with buckshot lying across my knees. This was in November, '77.

    In the end, what kept me from doing it was the thought that I would be leaving my little girl, 5, alone with no father and no answers. In that manner, my little girl saved my life just by being.

    I have an idea this doesn't answer any questions for you, but perhaps it will enlarge your perspective a little.


  • Angharad

    Sorry for your family's loss (((Beck))))

  • Frenchy

    I’m truly sorry to hear of your loss. My father committed suicide when I was fifteen but not before telling me that he was going to do it. I pleaded with him that Saturday morning but what can a fifteen year old kid do? He did it the next weekend.

    Many years later my younger brother did the same thing…after telling me that he was thinking about it. I failed both times to keep it from happening. At times I have these feelings myself and I struggle with them.

    There comes a time when the pain in a person’s life is so great that it becomes unbearable to contemplate going through one day. Perhaps in some strange way it’s a way of letting those of us who must bear the pain of their passing know just how much they were hurting.

  • think41self


    I have not experienced a suicide of a loved one Beck, but I wanted to add my condolences. What a tragic loss. Why does it seem that people who are more talented in the areas of art and music are more prone to depression and all that goes with it? It must have something to do with brain chemicals.

    Again, I'm terribly sorry.


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  • Dutchie

    Please accept my heartfelt condolences on the death of your beloved nephew. So handsome, so full of life. Words can never begin to express the sorrow you and your family are experiencing, but be assured that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • IslandWoman


    There are some people who are born with the inability to cope with the raw world around them. In their heart a better world is envisioned than what they find. When reality sets in so does deep sorrow. Suicide is a release.

    I am so sorry to hear of this young man's choice. I do hope that in the end he found peace.

    My love to you and your family,

  • teenyuck

    {{{{Beck}}}} I am so sorry for your loss. I have never lost a loved in that way...I can only imagine the grief and dispair you and your family are feeling. My thoughts are with you.


    PS...Frenchy, I am so sorry for your loss. Please do not feel that you did not do enough. It was not your fault.

  • Kep

    Hi ya Beck,

    Very sorry to hear about your loss. My heart goes to you and your family.
    It is so sad to know that he felt that low to do it.
    May you take my condolences back to your family.



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