I would not give them details, I made sure of that, when they were talking, I reach a point where I said "look, I'm taking control of my life as a 47 year old woman and I'm going to do what is in MY best interest. You got a problem with it, that's your to sort out, not mine". They told me to open to a scripture and I told them I didn't have my glasses and so I wouldn't be able to read along, even though they were in my purse. I was basically done in my head.
They got irritated (I suppose) and asked me to wait outside while they came to their decision. I went in my car and call the people I thought I had a decent relationship with in the KH and told them they were about to disfellowship me (especially since I got smart with these fools). One of the elders was a nasty, miserable disrespectful MF so I knew he was going to push for disfellowshipping. I always checked him on his behavior, I never let him treat me like I wasn't worth being respected as a human being because I was a sister. He knew not to try me, because I would definitely come for him. One time he called my house at 10:30pm to get my FS time (which I didn't care about so hardly ever turned in on time without being harrassed) and I told him "Just because I'm single does not mean you can call my house anytime you feel like it. I would never disrespect you or your family and call at a late hour. I work so I don't have time for this, you can make up any hours you want, I got to go to work tomorrow" and I hung-up on him
In any event, I didn't care how that mess was going to go either way.
I was under so much stress.......that's when it clicked, I said "let this shit go, if i'ts causing you this much stress it ain't worth it!" That's when I broke with the mind control programming. Right on the spot and knew when I walked back into the backroom, it would be the last time I stepped into a KH again. I was FREE!
The next day I followed up with the witnesses that I knew who I felt geninuely cared about me and told them I was disfellowshipped and I wish them all the best but I was not coming back. One sister tried to talk me down and told me to take the punishment and come back; I quickly dismissed her as she had done the exact same thing I did and left the state to go to another congregation and get reinstated. Sneaky bitch!
Prior to my disfellowshipping event, I confined in her about all my doubts about the organization and our similar situation, she told me she couldn't keep this info to herself, she was going to have to tell the elders .....didn't take long for this hypocrite to turn into a trailor (typical JW)! But I never told them about the extra stuff she had confined in me about, that they didn't even know. At that point, I told her "hey, do what you gonna do, I don't care either way." I was completely unconcerned. She tried to contact me several times after I got disfellowshipped but I just block her number.
Now life is a lot less stressful for me, and even though I have my moments in my day-to-day, like we all do, it is not compounded by the stress of this crazy, demanding, mean-spirited organization.
