This video just truly makes me cry. I was very bullied when I was first married and pioneering in the hall by the other married sisters my age.
My husband had been asked to go to the hall by the CO because the hall needed help. He had been there for a year before we got married.
I can only describe my days in field service as total HELL. The other sisters would totally bully me. Sometimes when I would met for service and my husband was not with me as he had elder things to do the sisters would mock me and tell me in a very condescending you just go home we do not have room for you. Then there were times when they would take me with them in service and make me feel like such dirt the whole day. Just saying belittling things to me the whole day. I am very afraid of dogs and being in the county every house had dogs some of them were really mean. I have been bit over six times in field service. I will never forget this one house that the sisters made me go to. I knew from being there in the past that they had this super mean dog, sometimes the dog would be tied up but other times he would be running lose. It was my turn to get out of the car, and I begged and pleaded with the sisters not to make me go. The sisters were so mean and spite full telling me I did not have any faith, and that I was not truly serving Jehovah, that He would protect me, etc. I finally got out and started to the door. The dog tore around the house when I was half way to the house and he was ready to kill me. I started to run back to the car and just barely made it when the dog bit into my skirt and I jumped into the car and all the sisters were just laughing at me. I was so not funny. I was so hurt that day and I still am writing it now. I was not funny.
I was so very depressed it was unreal. I truly was suicidal. I talked to my husband about it all, he is 17 years older then I am. The sisters all were so sweet and flirty around and him he told me that he did not believe me. That I was just making it all up that there was no way they were treating me like that.
Since the hall was in the country and all we did was drive around with no purpose but to waste time my husband and I spent a ton of money on gas and of course all the sisters wanted to use our car especially when my husband was out so all of our money as a couple went to field service.
Yet these sister were always going to the movies, getting their hair done, going shopping, going out to do fun things together, etc. They were always going on date nights with their husbands. Something I gave up in the first year of our marriage because first we did not have the money to do anything but second and more to the point my husband never had anytime to spend with me. I would make sandwiches and have coffee and beg my husband just to go for a walk and then some elder crisis would come up in the hall and he would dump me for the elder stuff.
I even spoke to the CO about how I was losing it and the CO rebuked me telling me that Jehovah needed my husband now and I could have him in the new system which was going to happen very soon. The CO totally treated me like I was a selfish Which.
That video truly just makes me sick.
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