Hey everyone. My name is... well.. let's call me Lexi for now. ;) I found this site a long time ago and just decided to join today.
Okay so I'm 19and living with my JW witness grandma. I am a born-in. I have never fully been into the truth. Until I was about 11 or 12 we always went to meetings. Then my mom got sick (she has a LOT of health problems) and my dad is always on the road (he's a truck driver). So eventually out attendance became low until we finally didn't go anymore. My mom was still as zealous as ever though (and still is), but my dad is pretty laid back I never fit in at the kingdom hall.. we were poor compared to most and since my dad rarely came we were kind of avoided in a sense. The girls were horrible to me because I couldn't afford expensive clothes and I was going through my ugly duckling stage at the time not to mention I was quiet. I always hated meetings. I remember hiding my mom's keys a lot because I really didn't want to go. She always thought (and still does) that I was always fated to die at armageddon. I felt bad because everyone else loved meetings but me, so I was scared of dying when the big day came, and I tried my best to get into it. But I could never understand what they were talking about because they used big words and the bible is pretty poetic so my parents would always get mad at me during meetings for asking what words meant and such. I could write more but, meh, just wanted to let you all know there's a newbie in the house. Just saying hi. :)