When I first posted here seven yrs ago I was still active, my whole family was in ,and we had a JW living with us . I would scan this forum at night when everyone was asleep or out of the house .Very scared so worried I would be found out to be unfaithful.
The reason I finally gained the boldness to come on this website was because of a Doctor Phil show I saw on cults . Things brought our in that show made me realize I had every right to seek answers to the questions I had about my religion . His show had dealt with two girls ,'The Two Fawns ',that had escaped a cult and I found their experience so close to how I felt ...trapped ,afraid to leave because of shunning policy ,the fear of THE END ,guilt thinking ect..
I was still nervous that coming on here was some sort of trick and that somehow I would be found out or that thhe posters on here really were evil agents of Satan .
My fears did not subside until I finally read Ray Franz books then I had clarity that this really is just another manmade religion period .
It all seems so silly now . I lived in fear always as a Jehovahs Witness ,all my life . That anxiety nearly ruined my life . That part of my life thankfully has evaporated away ,I enjoy the freedom of thinking for myself now.