You can see by my name that at one time I felt the same way as you do now.
My family left because of the horrible way my-at the time-sixteen year old daughter was treated by a Judicial Committee that sought to berate and humiliate her, accused her of things she did not do, and disfellowshipped her. I found this forum, and began reading. Soon, I found out more about things that had bothered me but that I had sought to push to the back of my mind-the generation teaching was the biggest one. First, they were the ones that were at an age of understanding in 1914, then, those that were born before 1914. Next, the generation was the contemporaries that did not accept Jesus' return. Now, they are an "overlapping generation" that again began in 1914.
Finally, it hit me. I had spent over thirty years trying to force my mind to accept some pretting implausable things just because the WTS pronounced it so. I had forgone an education so that I could financially struggle to get by doing cleaning jobs, and others that paid little and were exhausting.
My daughter, my husband, and I went through a major depression when we left. Thankfully, my daughter never gave up on her education, and will graduate from college with a degree in Biology in December. At 59 years old, I am in college, and loving every minute of it. I still must work full-time at a low-paying job, so won't graduate until year after next if my brain holds together.
You may not be able to go back and get on the football team, but you are young enough to pursue other things that are worthwhile. Please develop some goals...especially as regards education. You will never regret learning..it will open up many opportunities, and is just freeing to the mind!