On the way out...
From my best effort to understand Christian believers on JWN, I have the following understanding:
God and/or Jesus are nothing but good.
If there is anything in the Bible that makes Him/them seem bad (approving rape, genocide, murder, slavery, etc.) then we are either misunderstanding it or it is the words of men that misrepresents God/Jesus.
I understand what you are saying...at you kind of make sense.
Personally though...I do NOT believe that Jesus was talking about the God of the OT. I believe he is talking about a supreme being that he simply refers to as Father. And he describes him as being Love. Then he goes on to show us, by example what love is.
I think that there have been many people who have shown us Gods love, but Jesus is one I relate to. I don't fully understand the relationship between him and the entity he calls his father. But Jesus does tell us that his father is our father too. Whether Jesus is specifiacally Gods son or one of his sons as we are I do not know.
The concept has always been an intrinsic part of me also . . . from as young as I can remember. When I try to divorce myself from it entirely . . . the feeling is not pleasant . . . like a lonliness. The problem I have is connected to your previous puzzling question . . . the need to idolize. I wonder if that is simply motivated to stave off a lonliness.
I so totally understand what you are saying...it's actually a bit weird how you put what I am thinking into words sometimes.
This is why I believe that God (in whatever form he really is) is part of us...somehow, we are connected to him..when we disconnect, because of organised religion or other reasons we need to replace it with something else....maybe this is why people create Idols of other people. Or maybe, as you say it is simply a need to help us stave off lonliness.
If there truly was no God I think we would truly be alone wouldn't we? I really doens't matter how many people we have around us, how much we fill our lives up...we come into this world alone...and we leave it alone...no one can do that journey for us. Sometimes I feel a disconnect with the world, like I am just not part of it, and sometimes I feel fully involved. But to what purpose when those moments are fleeting and you are left with yourself once more?
I am beginning to believe that we need to KNOW ourselves to know God. Not because we are Gods per se, but because deep within us we have that connection to God and he is a part of us...once we truly know ourselves we begin to know God, we begin to understand others better, and we have peace.