Why oh WHY does an Organization have to make a point to crush natural parental affection?
The sad part is, it is all about self-preservation. The more they can limit any contact between those who have LEFT the organization, and those who are IN the organization, the better the chance that nobody within will learn the truth that everybody on the outside knows - that this is just another flawed human organization. The organization therefore protects itself from external contamination.
I genuinely feel for you, and I'm almost sorry to have written something that would make you cry. If it makes any difference, I got quite emotional writing it. I've only recently begun reading Watchtower articles from an objective perspective, and it now infuriates me to see how self-contradictory and incomprehensible much of the logic and reasoning is. The really sad thing is, I was buying into this stuff until only relatively recently, so I can't condemn anyone for believing it.
I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that you are not alone in your feelings of anger and hopelesness. You have many friends on this site who desperately want you to succeed in not allowing the organization to crush you, even if it has temporarily succeeded in breaking up your family.