even having him on a assembly part saying how Jehovah had helped him get Satan out of his life by having him burn all his book that had demons in them
Can you even imagine what a mind game this could be for a schitzophrenic? He has Satan in his life. He burns his books to oust the demons. Thousands of people applause him for this as he gets to confirm his delusions as real from a stage with lights. This is disgusting.
It's a one size fits all religion. Since it's THE TRUTH it works for everyone! And if you have a special talent or ability, too bad. The only talent that matters is recruiting others. No one gets to be truly special by their own right. No one gets to be individual. And a mentally ill person can't say that they are not good at door-to-door, but they can paint a great picture and art can be their ministry.
Since leaving the org, I haven't had one panic attack. The feeling of impending doom has lifted and I never feel it anymore. That persistent guilty feeling that I should be doing something has left. My feelings of worthlessness are a memory. Anxiety over how others view my every little move and comment has passed. After 20 years of medication for depression and anxiety, I haven't taken any of them for over a year and a half.
They expect too much of the seriously ill. And they bring on mental illness in otherwise healthy people. They are not prepared to handle individuals, and their creative thinking is nill, so they can't come up with innovative ways to include the seriously ill. They have one prescription for all ills--and if it doesn't work for you, then you are evil.
So today I am again asking myself repeatedly, WHY OH WHY did I ever get involved? HOW could I have thought that the treadmill was the best thing for my depression? My panic attacks started while I was studying. My first anti-depressant was prescribed less than a year after I was baptized. Yet I was grateful that I was part of the congregation, because what would have happened to me if clinical depression had hit and I didn't have them???? I'll tell ya---it wouldn't have hit!
I can't imagine what this does to someone sicker than me. It almost killed me, and yet I am functioning just fine away from the KH. Some of these poor souls are suffering so much more.