may I blow my own horn?

by stillin 12 Replies latest watchtower beliefs

  • stillin

    Some of you may have had the same experience. (I hope) I always worked hard on preparing to give talks to the congregation. I am self-conscious and I need to feel as though I am really bringing something worthwhile "to the table." When I was giving Public Talks, the local elders always seemed concerned if the talk seemed in any sense "original" I used the outlines as just that, outlines. I used the scriptures that were in the outlines. But I also put a lot of thought into my preparation...I made the material my own and felt as though I was sharing my faith with people who shared my faith.

    But the consternation among the elders...I was a MS...

    It didn't prevent them from allowing me to go out to surrounding congregations, which actually sort of confirms my gut feeling that they are actually jealous to some degree, of my freedom to use whatever illustration I feel fits, with whatever limited articulateness I may have, and it works (!); they on some level, recognised that I actually was being encouraging. But they had to work me over regularly, about some miniscule detail that was in my talk, that may have been worded in a way that they hadn't seen in print. Not actually apostate, but more like "who do you think you are, actually THINKING about your material?"

    I still go to most of the meetings. Most of the brothers still give these lukewarm, uninspiring talks. And I know that they are just doing what they are told to do; not to shine in any way because it puts too much emphasis on themselves rather than the wonderful material that the wonderful organization has provided. But what a drag! I want to know people who actually have hearts and blood flowing through thier veins, not robots who just fill the allotted time-slot.

    Sorry...I'm ranting..

  • mummatron
    I want to know people who actually have hearts and blood flowing through thier veins, not robots who just fill the allotted time-slot.

    Exactly! I used to sit there whenever we got a visiting robot, thinking to myself that I'd sacrificed a lie-in, a chance to work Sunday for time and a half pay, the opportunity to watch the Grand Prix/football/Stuart Lee & Richard Herring's 'This Morning with Richard not Judy" all to be bored to death by someone who the Theocratic Minisitry School should've failed, for a public talk I'd heard 3 times already done better by the previous speakers. Gaaarrrrggghhh...

  • Witness My Fury
    Witness My Fury

    Damn, I thought this might be a rude thread....

  • mummatron

    I thought that too at first.

  • Witness My Fury
    Witness My Fury

    Well I've tried and can't, nuff said.

  • mummatron

    I think you need ribs removed to do that. So I've heard...

  • rebel8

    If Jehovah created our brains, wouldn't he want us to make good use of the gift?

    Is this reflective of what a true religion would be like?

  • MrFreeze

    They may as well just write all the talks out for the brothers. Sheesh.

  • Ding

    The WT is all about control, not creativity.

  • Fernando

    Dear stillin

    What we all have experienced and know can sometimes be difficult to put into words.

    You have done so very well.

    Every bit of confirmation and support helps on our journeys.

    These authoritarian, dogmatic, prescriptive, coercive, and spiritually blind ways are quite Pharisaic to say the least...

    After following and delving into the full and true "good news" for 3½ years loyally only using the fragmented, convoluted, contradictory and meager scraps found in the Watchtower library, it dawned on us that the "good news" may be in their publications, but not in their hearts and not on their lips, by design and by their preference.

    It became clear that the entire harlotrous religious system is not from God, is an imposter (false Christ), is not the way to God, and is meant for extinction not reformation (John 14:6). We , like author Anne Rice (see Wikipedia), left religion for good - in the name of Jesus who was/is against religion, religionists, and teaching religion (instead of the "good news" according to Isaiah, Paul and others). Matt 23:15.

    "The spirit of the Sovereign Lord Jehovah is upon me [Jesus], for the reason that Jehovah has anointed me [Jesus] to tell [the] good news to the meek ones [sheep or wheat]. He has sent me [Jesus] to bind up the brokenhearted [spiritually deprived and unregenerated], to proclaim [spiritual] liberty to those taken [spiritually] captive [by religion/ists] and the wide opening [of the spiritual eyes] even to the [spiritual] prisoners [of religion/ists]" (Isa 61:1)

    Greetings and blessings


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