Ah. That's maybe where we differ, sab. I did. But what are you fearful of, then? How it will affect you? Isn't that the same thing?
My parents are a bad example. Take my wife for example:
I don't necessarily fear the death of my wife. Because if she died she would merely be at peace so to speak. However, her death would have ramifications on the world she left behind. My wife was her parents miracle child. They were told by a doctor that they couldn't have kids and the doctor was right... for 15 years that is. So in my father in law's 40th year of existence he gets a first, and only, daughter. Her death at a young age would crush him and his wife into mental oblivion and no one could blame them for it. Not to mention I would become a single dad and my son would grow up motherless.
What I fear most is the repercussions of death because, no matter how hard I try, I cannot really prepare myself for them. I know that I would be capable of handling them, but I also know that it would come from some other force I don't currently have (because it's not happening). I am grateful that my brain has such wonderful "evasive action" capabilities.
Death is just entering into peace for for the person dying, but it's the chaos that remains afterwardthat puts chills down my neck.