I have not logged in here in a while. Seemed I was able to subdue my anger and smash all of the past behind me for a while. It has bubbled back to the top....
I can't complain, life is good. I truly am happy, good job, friends, non-JW fam who loves me, health, kids are well. The nagging issue of the betrayal of natural familial relationships is what scars my psyche and keeps me fired up from time to time is what has reared it's ugly head again.
For those who know me, I have 1/2 dissenter JW family who all have various JW labels on them, DF, DA, Fader; the other half whole souled devoters/brainwashed. The other half who are still in are what bothers me. That being my sister which bothers me the most. She is so full of life. I was her age when I fully woke up and came up with my plan to get out.
My gosh, she is such a coward she never came out and had the decency to tell me that she was going to shun me, instead just a gradual not return text or email or phone call. Does she think about me? I bet so. It is just easier for her to ignore.
It is so bad to say that I hope one day a tragedy, a death, an accident, something wakes her up? The girl is so smart, book smart....but afraid of what lies on the other side. The judgement and fear of leaving the fold keeps her in.
I guess family bonds mean nothing.
Funny how non JW people completely recognize how wrong it is.
Thanks for reading my vent. It has been building up and needed to let that out.