Where should I start?? Maybe by saying than Im still in the organization, but I have stopped going to meetings since the Distric Convention. My story is as follows, as far as I remember my mom was studying with the JW , since I was born I was attending meetings , going in field service and being “different” I am the youngest, and my siblings were teenagers when my mom was studying, so , none of them embraced “the truth”.
I got baptized at 10 and since then I don’t remember my mom going to the meetings constantly, but , she always sent me and pushed me to go out in field service. She has been inactive for almost 15 years but she always reads the magazines and all the recent books and brochures, she only attends to the memorial once a year, goes to my niece’s birthday parties , but still she wants me to follow all the JW rules ……… Yesterday we had a fight coz I ve been going out with friends Saturday night , and not going to meetings , she asked me , so? Are you not going to meetings anymore? I said, you haven’t for 15 years, she said, I am old and im sick (kind of true , but she doesn’t make any effort either). I am dating a good guy who isn’t a JW and now she thinks all my changes has been because of this , I ve been trying to explain to her about all the things the WS has been wrong about but she just doesn’t listen.
I am heartbroken now coz I don’t want to hurt my mom but I want to live!!!!!! Experience things and not feel the pressure because of a decision I made been so young ….. I have so much to post as ive been 22 years in the Org by now… that’s for later .