So, I'm new to the site lurked around for a week or so now before signing up. I'll try to keep this first post short. Just looking to make some connections with others that have been thru similar life experiences and help out anyone that feels empty and alone after leaving the "organization"
A little about me: during my years as a born-in I spent a few years as a Pioneer, MS and Account Servant (so I know a little about how those finances work ). I was never really into the "truth" as a young person and looking back I probably should have left when I reached adulthood. But, I hung around just long enough to come under increasingly stronger pressure to "enjoy" more and more privileges. I guess I continued fooling myself and everyone else that I was strong and kept getting "promoted" as time went by. My father was an elder and former pioneer himself which is where alot of the pressure came. He's not either now, but still calls himself a witness. He did not compeletly shun me after I was DF'd 10 years ago (at the age of 27), and things have never been the same. To me it's all for the best as I was physically abused as a child. A child of a single parent who was abusive and short-tempered but hypocritically called himself a "true" christian. I think I managed to grow up as well-balanced as possible, in spite of it all.
I think I'll stop there for now, it's starting to bring back some of the bad memories of my youth. I'm looking forward to sharing the things that have been bottled up all these years... but I think I should pace myself. I think that's why I finally started looking around on the internet for groups of people such as this. It's time to complete the healing process after all those years of wasted youth.