by Star tiger 18 Replies latest jw friends
Greetings,
Is it just me, I have hit the booze quite heavily after leaving the Borg, have now got it pretty much within my control now, but for a long time it did keep me from thinking about the crap that I have gone through!!
Best Regards,
Star Tiger
Up until about two years ago, I was drinking almost every night. I told a family member that I felt caught in the middle. I wasn't really "Worldly" and I was certainly not a Witness. She understood because, although she was a JW at the time, she had been df'd in the past and was doing the same things I was doing.
Chalk me up . . . apart from the anti-depressants and sleeping pills I was hammering the booze and even gravitating toward opiate pain-killers and weed for a while. No booze anymore cos of liver disease . . . just the very occasional recreational indiscretion.
But hey . . . no major surgery is ever that comfortable without some sort of anasthesia. Just "chipping" and not letting things get out of control is the formula. Then things get back to normal as the pain subsides. That's been my experience . . . others won't agree I'm sure.
If you count too much time spent on JWD and JWN.
No not really
This post should have been posted in the Private section otherwise people might be reluctant to say anything that could be easily googled.
I admit it: for a while I was on the razor edge of alcoholism out of sheer loneliness and boredom. Thankfully I was able to pull myself back from the brink and I'm back to a more healthy social drinking regimen. I didn't try any other chemicals, legal or not...
V665
Drinking, no drugs. Then again I was drinking before I left.
I did to an extent but I don't know if I could pin it entirely on leaving the borg. I used to binge drink as a student, but then few students don't. I also smoked weed recreationally of an evening for a few years. However I have an illness (Fibromyalgia caused by insufficient levels of Serotonin) that improves with use of the drug and was advised (off record) by a specialist consultant that it would help! It did.
I'm now on anti-depressants partly for the illness, and mainly due to PTSD which I now see is definitely linked to feelings of guilt, shame, loneliness etc as a result of coming away from the borg's control and straight into an abusive, controlling relationship with my ex-husband.
I drank more in the O then I did after. I was trying the num the doubts.
