well right now im inactive, but i am very vocal in regards to how i feel about the org. ive already been warned by my parents that my talk is bordering apostate and i know theyll be obedient j-dubs when it comes to shunning but i know itll be hard on them. i sooo want to just send my letter in, and move on with my life but there is always that gun pointed at my head.
the way i see it and the reality of things is that either i go back and everything goes back to normal for my family. this goes against my inner values and i know will never ever happen. or i could stay as is "inactive" and semi keep my family but always be skating on thin ice when around them, plus the way i see it, if ever i meet a nice woman who i one day end up building a life together with, i will lose my family then so why waste all the time inbetween?? i really really hate (i know its a strong word) the wts and how they come in between family members. its disgusting!