JW Talk Radio- My First Guest Flaked

PublishingCult

OK, my first guest has flaked on me. This is a little disappointing because I was looking forward to a discussion about homosexuality and the Bible that people could really sink their teeth into.

Other the other hand, I am relieved.

I don’t have to do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I’m fucking tired, and I have a diminishing case of PTSD, and it will never go away unless I let go of all this shit, and get out of battle mode. I am going to end up like Rick Fearon if I am not careful, lol.

I was born and raised in the organization of JW’s. My entire life was consumed with all things WTBTS. Now that I am out, what the hell am I doing? Am I living my life? Have I put it all behind me? NO! I am still completely absorbed by all things WTBTS. I think about it. I talk about it. I have to get information out to others, blah blah blah. What the hell is the matter with me?

There are many xJW’s who are doing a fine job, and I really won’t be missed, and I really won’t make that much of a difference anyway. Let the others be consumed with exposing the WTBTS. Let them eat, sleep, and shit all things WTBTS. I think I would just like to take the rest of my wasted life and do absolutely nothing even remotely related to the WTBTS.

I’m outtie.

I might make a vid on occasion, but it will not be any kind of a priority.

Summer is fast approaching, for Chrissake.

I am relatively a young still, single gay man, whose children are grown and on their own, out of the organization, and I don’t need to worry about them anymore when it comes to the org. I am an empty nester. I have never really taken any time for me, and I am going to take my spring and summer and fucking enjoy it. I am not going to waste a single minute thinking or talking or doing a damn thing having anything to do with the org of JW’s or the WTBTS.

I love you all.

I wish you all the best.

Go gettem, Mad Sweeny!

lovelylil

PC I wish you the best whatever you decide to do with your life!

I can understand how you feel because I feel the same way sometimes. I often ask myself, how much more time do I want to spend thinking about the JW's and the WT? That is why I leave this forum for long periods at a time. I just need a break sometimes and need to focus on my life. Truth be told when I am away from the board, I almost NEVER think about my past life as a JW. And that really is a good thing.

You are right about the summer approaching, I will be very busy with friends, family and trips too. Hope you have a great summer. If you are EVER in the Boston area, you have my phone number PLEASE do not hesitate to call me. You are always welcome in my home. You have proved yourself a true friend and confidant PC and I have lots of respect for you as a person.

I will pm you my address too, just in case you make a trip my way.............Peace to you always, Lilly

Marvin Shilmer

PublishingCult,

Smell the rain and drink the sunshine. You are loved.

Peace out.

Marvin Shilmer

http://marvinshilmer.blogspot.com

undercover

Good job, PC... I'm glad...

Good luck to you in your life going forward...

Mad Sweeney

Live your life. You ARE free, now BE free.

Find the happiness that's the right of all people.

leavingwt

I think you're right. Enjoy your life.

Thanks again for the videos. I enjoyed them.

laverite

I *LOVED* the videos. You will be missed PC.

journey-on

You've had an epiphany! Now...get away from this place! IMO, JWN is a great place to come for initial support, confirmation that you have made the right decision to leave the borg, post some informative material for others to digest, and maybe meet a friend or two.

After that, you need a few years away from all things JW....including this forum. After you have secured yourself emotionally, psychologically, and otherwise, come back and play with us. Just don't get re-absorbed and let it consume your real life.

Iconoclast

PC - I personally love your videos. When I was digging my heels in, getting ready to bolt, I found your videos online and it did help quite a bit. It validated my concerns and kind of gave me a sense of "I'm not alone in this" even thought the WT wants to make us feel like we are. So for that, I thank you. Good luck to you! Just know that you were not fruitless in your efforts.

Also, an interesting fact about Biblical times and homosexuality...a course I took a few years ago dealt with Romans during Jesus' time. The professor spent an entire 4hr lecture on the definition of pornia and how it related to homosexuality. To summarize, the "kept for unnatural purposes" and "men that lie with men" dealt primarily with the owner/slave relationship. If you were a slave and your owner slept with you, it was not out of love and was completely done out of dominance. Same thing with women slaves but yet the Bible doesn't make a big deal out of that, now does it. Anyway, this certain Art Historian professor (who studied only Greco-Roman btw) was very convincing in his arguement through use of illustration and artwork that the Greco-Roman's created.

And also, the word Pornia, that stupid word that the WTBTS tries to decifer all of the time to prove their twisted points, covered a SLEW of acts now considered ok within relationships, including oral sex. Apparently, it was okay for men to recieve but disgusting if they gave. The reason? No idea. But yet, it was fine to have sex with understudies, some as young as 6 yrs old.

Iconoclast

And on a side note, if that is really you in your icon, you've got pretty muscles

JW Talk Radio- My First Guest Flaked

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