"new me when i believed and was patient but since i got enough balls to research and found out it's been a short time comparitively"
I know its a new you. I can tell and yes it has been a relatively short time for you to come full circle with your doubts and your choice to get off the fence. Glad you have. thanks for the welcome.
What a relief to know you weren't outting yourself in the other way. I would have been sad considering we've known each other so long and I hadn't figured it out already and a little weirded out maybe too.