I've been in this board for 2 months now, and have read and researched enough to know that what I thought was the one and only true religion isn't actually true. Finding out real facts has brought me severe disillusion and sadness.
As a JW I was taught that we were special in view of John 6:44 " No man can come to me unless the Father, who sent me, draws him; and I will resurrect him in the last day.". If there were 1000 random people picked out in the world, I was the only one God looked down with approval. I felt He had personally drawn me into his wonderful organization, and chosen me to survive this world, and never die.
Now I know that God didn't actually select me out of 1000 random people to gain everlasting life. And He definitely didn't draw me into his wonderful organization, the one true faith.
When I came to know the truth about the WT, I was disappointed, mad and angry at the GB for propagating and enforcing false teachings. Now I'm a bit angry with God (I'm still a believer though). How could He not see that I was sincere and wanted to be part of his people (if he has a chosen group on earth). Why did he allow me to become part of a false organization?
This has been bothering me for some time now. I had to let it out.
I don't know if others in this board have had these feelings. How did you rationalize them and were you able to repair your relationship with God?