Do you ever feel that way about your JW past? Maybe I need more time? I know that it is a lie. I think what bothers me are the ties that seem to be attached. For example, I had a friend who was DF'd after many, many years get reinstated. It is obvious it is for family and she is enjoying the social circle now. But she is definitely going through my Christmas pics on FB and making comments. She sent me a note saying she heard I was DF, and I am not. She is hanging around people from my old KH now that she is reinstated. Why should any of that bother me? It shouldn't. But it does, so I blocked certain things from her. Maybe I just think she could start trouble, because so many people I thought were harmless have caused trouble.
I thought I was fine not having my mother and sister in my life. I still feel tortured. Think about the horrendous things my mother has said to me. The silence from my sister bothers me. I feel so angry at them both. They are cowards. I wish they would say it to my face that they are shunning me, rather than not saying anything or just making untrue personal attacks.
Then I found out through my divorce papers that my ex has tried several times to get me to establish my status as a JW, and is rather unhappy of my inactive, undefined label, rather than a big fat DA or DF. I wonder when is he going to stop?
So at what point does life go on? When do you stop caring about the past?