Dearest Varian... peace to you! First, thank you for checking in. I don't usually get "involved" with posters whose first one or two posts are "catch me, I think I'm falling" in nature. Very little one can do under those circumstances. Funny, though... I have been wondering over the past few days if you were okay... what eventually happened. I did not respond to your post because, frankly, it kind of upset me. I mean, no one knew you or where you were and so felt totally helpless. I know I did. Which is a horrible feeling in and of itself. I held my post because... well, I didn't think asking you not to put the kind folks here through such an ordeal (which I feared you might) was probably not the best "advice" to give you at the time. All I could do is pray for you, which I did. I hope you're here as a result of that.
Just so you know, 90% of the folks here are very loving. 95% are very forgiving. 99% understand what you went through. So you should be okay, no worries, now, about what you put some of us through. A personal favor, though, please? Try not to do it again? I know that may be lot to ask and so I would also ask that you (1) shoot Simon/Lady Lee... or someone here that you come to trust over a little time... your phone number, and (2) call the Hotline (someone posted the number) if you can't do that but start feeling that "falling" feeling again. You don't even have to tell them your name. Just say, "Hey, it's me, Varian, and although I don't intend to ever go through/do that again... you never know so, if I do, give 911 this number." No one will judge you for doing that. Personally, I think Simon should have EVERYONE'S contact number, by avatar at least, just in case "something" does happen to someone. Someone could fall... there could be a poster that none of us have heard from in awhile that needs checking on... who knows. Or Armageddon could come. No, seriously, not everyone has someone outside of the board (well, maybe a JW someone or two, but sometimes that doesn't matter); some are truly alone in this world in a family/friends kind of way.
But I am very glad to know you're okay. I can put my fears to rest as can some others. So, thank you for checking in and giving us an update. And keep in mind that although we most probably all will die at some point... we have the privilege of doing a whole lot of living before we do. Take advantage of that... while you still can.
Again, peace to you. Seriously and sincerely.
A slave of Christ,