Hi all! I'm new here. I'm married, have a wonderful, but "unbelieving" wife. I have three kids, all of whom are honor students and very responsible.
Now my dilemma: none of my kids are the least bit interested in being JW's. I took them all to meetings even as babies without the help of my wife or anyone else in the congregation. My wife has been supportive , but not interested either. I feel very isolated because of the cold nature of the people in the cong.
On top of this, I've done a lot of research showing very unfavorably on the Watchtower Society, and have not let any in my cong. know how I feel. At this point I feel like I've wasted my time as a JW. I feel like I've been following men(FDS)instead of Christ. This feeling makes me literally sick. I wake up every morning with a feeling of dread at the way I feel about the Society, being trained that if I leave, I'll die forever. This fear I have also for my wife and kids. Why should a "loving" organization make me feel this way? Sometimes I feel that I don't belong in this world any longer.
Well, I've unloaded. That much is off my chest.