I need you to pray for me, I absolutely want to die right now. I feel so horrible right now.

by miseryloveselders 27 Replies latest jw friends

  • minimus

    Here I was thinking you were really suicidal.

  • darth frosty
    darth frosty

    Damn last night I went thru the same thing except instead of oreo's it was chip ahoy!

  • GLTirebiter

    I hope you're feeling better this morning. Nibble on some fruit and veggies, fiber will help to clean out the remains of last night's excess.

  • Finally-Free
    fiber will help to clean out the remains of last night's excess

    I think a bag of oatmeal cookies should do the trick.


  • miseryloveselders


    IMO spending Friday night with an old bag is not good. You need to be out with someone hot. I think you're stuck in neutral. Get on with life. Resign as an elder. Get 'r done. Make plans to ask your boss out for a drink next Friday night. Give her a few days notice, so she can think about it if she needs to. If she dodges it politely don't be too upset...she may just feel it's inappropriate. Don't take it necessarily as being personal.

    Remember however this could compromise your fade. There is always a JW around at the wrong time. If you feel you must play it safe, ask a few co-workers along as accusation protection.

    But if you are feeling adventurous just prepare a good story in case you are seen. It shouldn't be difficult to find an excuse. After all, she's your boss.

    Just my take on the Oreo binge but it is your Friday to live as you like. But remember there are just so many Fridays in a lifetime.


    Geez Wheels, now I really do feel like offing myself LOL. In my department, there aren't any other JWs. In the office building and its sister building, there are a handful. In a way I'm happy they're around, as it keeps me in order. Sometimes I wonder if oppurtunity and and the right girl would be enough to expose my weakness. Man I'd love to ask my boss out. I call her my boss, but technically she's not my boss, more like one of my superiors. When nobody is around, she definately lets her hair down just a tad around. She cusses, and talks about her own insecurities. I guess I can say as a man, I have a minor crush on her. She's one of those gals thats extremely intelligent for her age. The position she has at the company is one that requires several degrees, one of which she doesn't have. She's currently wrapping up school to get that degree so they can pay her what she should be getting paid and also give her proper recognition. If she was a man, she could run the world efficiently. She's part of the reason I kind of want to go back to school. I feel somewhat inadequate as a man when with her, although I would never let it show. I'm not jealous, don't get me wrong, I just wish I had more to offer her. I'd love to be one of those guys that made enough for my wife to stay at home, if thats what she wanted to do.

    As far as Fridays go, I know Wheels, I know. I've had some fun in my life though. I just really didn't feel like going out last night. I was quite content sitting home and binging on Oreos. I went out in Field Service this morning and I felt ok. I have a talk tommorrow which I working on right now. Someday I'll resign and get away from this cancer, but I still feel as if I'm helping people in the congregation within the capacity I'm allowed as an undercover apostate in good standing. For Bane and others, don't get me wrong, I'm not undermining anybody's faith in any regards. I feel strongly that anybody that questions this organization, needs to come to the conclusion pro or con on their own terms. I don't blame this forum or anybody other than myself for the thoughts I have. This forum just gave me some assistance. I'm just not quite ready to hurt people particulary my immediate family, and some people at the hall. I guess the day will come when I'll ask myself how much its all worth.

    PS, sorry if anybody came in this thread thinking I was really considering self-harm. I apologize. There's still plenty of NonJW life left that I enjoy on my own time to ever consider something irrational like that. I appreciate everybody's posts in this thread, and the entire forum. That includes Bane, and Debator too. Have a good night everybody.

  • Quentin

    mix 25 onces of warm water with one teaspoon of sea salt and drink all at once 1st thing in morning ... you'll clean your colon : can you use regular salt?

    Next time you want binge like that eat hot dogs and drink beer....

  • Dark Side
    Dark Side

    As pointed out in another thread, miseryloveselders, you are a fucking assclown (or was it idiot?)

    Both apply

  • wheelwithinwheel

    My advice:

    1. Resign - if you really believe it's a cancer, how can you get on the stage or knock on a door wearing your JW suit? Don't you realise you're a hyprocrite and you're helping the cancer grow?

    2. Continue your education - you won't regret having more but probably will regret having less (look at your boss's situation)

    3. Ask your superior out - what's stopping you? Get to know her better. It's the JW mindset that has you believing you are inferior and she is out of your league.

    4. Get moving - what are you waiting for? Are you planning on just piddling through life waiting for Armagueddon to work everything out for you. That's your old JW solution to everthing. One day, like all JW's, you're going to wake up an old man and it will be a lot sooner than you think

    Finally... you have spent years preaching to others that they need to make changes in their lives. Change their beliefs, distance themselves from worldly parents, siblings, relatives and friends. And live with the consequences. Are you ready to practice what you preach?


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