...but I miss my kitties and I miss my lil niece! Once I decided NOT to 'return' to the org, and let my parents KNOW - they began to shun me. Broke my heart at first, but it is what it is. I've slowly gotten used to them not calling to see how I am, or not being able to just stop by (I pass their house on a regular basis doing errands). Saw my father taking a walk the other day, and BF wanted to pull over and say hi, and I got this WEIRD feeling like "I don't know that man" as I looked right at my dad. He didn't see me, but it's hard to explain...as if in my mind I know that he is my dad, but I don't FEEL like it - make sense????
So it's now July, and this is officialy 2yrs since I was DF'd: 1yr since I was last in my parents home, 1yr since I last hugged/held my niece (whom I love dearly), and 1yr since I got to hug and pet my loveable kitties (that are at my parents home). I'm sorry if that soundbs completely immature and ridiculous, but I just have this desire to hug up with my kitties...I sincerely miss them. They always calmed me, and were 'family' in my eyes. As for my niece, I find myself wondering what she's doing, how well she talks now that she's 4yrs old, what she looks like, if she remembers me.
Now the anger of my situation is setting in...being that I have changed and grown over the past 2yrs since being OUT of the JW religion, I know for a fact I'm more well-rounded, and I'm happy! But I can't have the 'small' comforts of my past life because a RELIGION says so!!!
Thanks for letting me vent!