I want to thank all of you for both your advice (some of it, quite insensitive...) and your warnings.
As for questioning parents, I understand that I have a lot to risk in doing this, but my issue is not losing my family...
I am currently evaluating what the right course is.
It's a bit of a russian roulette game, but the difference is that this is theoretically calculable and manipulable towards my favor.
My parent's, from an honest standpoint, don't have many more years left on theirs side. My father is getting close to 70, and my
mother has just started in her sixties.I, as any good-hearted person, want them to die happy. But on the other side, (and understanding
that I now see myself as agnostic) this is the only life I have, and it would be a shame to waste half of it to something so vain.
It really hurts- on one side, I want my folks to understand the truth about the "truth"... but on the other side, I don't want them
to die without having some form of comfort.
I feel tempted not to say this but I feel that it is necessary - but I am frankly more intelligent and more understanding when it
comes to analyzing things from a logical standpoint than they. I don't believe in demons, I don't believe that God, if he exists, is actually
interacting with people and guiding them with any true purpose.
This is my opinion that I am entitled to, mind you, and I ask that you respect that.
The fact is, my parents just don't have the mental capacity to grasp what I understand; what I know. And because of this, I know that even if
I were to get them to realize this was all a lie, they would come to the conclusions that any and every one else has been through. That is, withdrawal of a cultic mindset. I can't be happy knowing that I took away this future my parents thought they had for over 35 years...
I'm sure you can contemplate how that may feel.
So I'm really just going through a debate right now about how far I really want to take this, in regards to my parents.
The reason I want the argument, though, is that I want my parents to understand my decisions. I don't want to leave them in the dark, thinking
that if I leave it's because of a girl, or some temptation like drugs (which they believe the 'world' is all about, of course).
They can't see a life without the bible- they can't understand that a person devoid of god can still have morals.
That, just because you doubt the existence of a deity, that you can't still siphon the bits of wisdom the bible does have to offer, and apply those
in your life.
Nevertheless, the entire ordeal is something to truly ponder over and meditate on.
Steve2: I can see the wisdom in what you're saying, but if you were ever a witness then you'll know ever situation when leaving is different, and much more complex than anyone but you yourself could possibly comprehend and evaluate.
As much as I would love to go commando and just 'cut my losses', I need more time to compare other options. As much as I would love to just fade out of this nightmare, I know that odds are that eventually I will have to face the reality of losing people I love. It's rumor that elders must now contact people that fade at all costs, and define the line, so to speak (This, coming from LuciousVBogeymanProd on youtube...).
I think people are already beginning to avoid me, and I see the elders watching me more than usual... it hurts to see what's in store. And I can't do a damn thing about it...
I'll keep keep peeps updated though- keep in touch you all.