exwhyzees seeing what has changed is a good point.
theres been quite a few posts about the stages of recovery you go through and it being like mourning.
when i left the jw guilt trip and emotional blackmail ran very strong, i excused their behaviour of me because i figured i should have known how it was going to be and i made allowances for them following their rules.
as time went on i came to realise that the behaviour i viewed as normal and acceptable was actually very inappropriate and quite frankly delusional , even worse, i was subjecting my child to a toxicity she didnt deserve. unfortunately i'd left it to go on so long while making excuses for their sensibilities it did a lot of damage.
at some point there comes a realisation that no matter how hard you try to meet the ever changing requirements or how many allowances you make, its never going to end.
nothing is ever going to change and you're supposed to eat dirt and be grateful and lap up whatever scraps are thrown your way.
they may be getting worse, or just maybe they've always been that way, perhaps you're coming to the point where you're realising this is the only way they know how to behave and your tolerance of their treatment of you and yours has got to the thin end of the wedge.