A quote from "Crisis of Conscience". Don't be afraid to read it.
Whatever the initial distress - a distress that sometimes follows the demenaing experience of being interogated by men who, in effect strip one of dignity, make the weight of their authority felt, and presume to judge adversely one's standing with God - however torn one may feel inside, afterward there is a distinct feeling of relief, of peace. It is not just knowing that one is finally outside the reach of such men, no longer subject to their eccliastical scrutiny and pressure.......
The greatest freedom enjoyed is that of being able to serve God and his Son - as well as serve for the good of all persons - untrammelled by the dictates of imperfect men. There is freedom to serve according to the dictates of one's own conscience, according to the motivation of one's own heart. The sense of having a great burden lifted off, the lightening of a heavy load, comes with that freedom.
The mind which renounces, once and forever, a futile hope, has its compensation in ever growing calm.