I'm sorry about how your feeling right now. But you will go through stages, it's just part of the process. Keep studying medicine or anything that interests you! This will be the biggest help. You WILL make other friends in time especially if you are going to school, just wait and see how many great people start to come into your life! And don't look for another set of "beliefs", in fact, it's not a bad thing to just be with 'you' for a while. Embrace that. It feels like starting over for sure, but it doesn't have to be sad, look at it as a new beginning and how fun and free this is going to be. Make good use of this site to help you. .wf