Dear Wannabe,
as was said above, there is too much Watchtower theology and exegesis stuck in your brain. I would respectfully suggest you prayerfully study the Bible anew.
Pray that you may have the help o fthe Holy Spirit to understand God's word without men from Brooklyn, or men from anywhere telling you what it means. then make a positive move to remove all WT thinking and explanations from your mind, then read the Bible in a good translation.
You may then come back to us on here with some real good insights for us to relish , not re-hashed WT drivil.
Love
Wobble