Yesterday, when Farkel announced his departure and shunning of us all, I was incensed and outraged. In fact I had similar feeling's to those day's 20yrs ago, after being df'd, where former friends and relatives, just simply said 'your no good, your not worthy of my/our attention anymore' turned thier back's and walked away from me.
Then witnessed Farkel ignore the sweet comments Lilac's writes just for him....made we want to ring his neck.
My pal Unclebruce's comments, about our friendship and affection, just about made me shamefull for being so mad at Farkel.
Today while driving the interstate, my thoughts mulling over all these recent developments on jw.com, massaging my anger somewhat, I had a shiver. You know one of those that start at the top of your head and course right down to your toes, when it isn't even cold?
The shiver was caused by the revelation, that even in cyberspace one is not imune from loss. I have lost so many people I once loved dearly, either jw, because of time and distance, death, for whatever reason....more than I care to admit.
Even though I have had issues with Farkel and other's here, the enormity of the loss of relative's and friends, simply got the best of me, and I started crying like a baby. I almost had to pull over to the side of the road.
We all talk about healing for the lurker, the jw looking for a way out, giving of ourselves in well researched posts, all well and good.
What about us, what about our association, why are we just to accept that loosing friends, aquaintenance on the net is Ok, just a rite of passage? Iam sick and tired of loosing people. Iam tired of having to say goodbye, to anyone. Life is just to damn short.
Farkel, Amazing, Max, Alan, Kent, msil, any other's that left us, stop it, don't shun like the shunner's. Don't disfellowship us, I have had enough of that to last 5 lifetimes.
I may bark at you, I may not exercise enough kindness and act like a damn asshole, but so what? If you continue this sanction against us, you are hurting the very people you say need your help.
I don't want to hurt anymore, I promise I will be more forgiving of your's and mine faults.
I really mean it.