Welcome and please make yourself at home.:)
When I first started visiting so called apostate sites in the cover of night my heart too started racing and pounding away. My conscience was screaming and finally I felt like I was making a pact with the Devil to deliver my soul to him!
What I found was incredible, it confirmed all my suspicion that I had kept locked up inside for a long time. Now I'm looking at the scripture that says man will dominate man to his injury from a totally unexpected point of view. Why was I always told not to seriously question our own beliefs but worst why did I so unreservedly obey such commands of men. My suspicions were correct the Society did have something to hide. They are hiding many truths about the 'truth'.
I'm not going to go into any proof giving regarding this statement I just wrote because I found proof requires much reading and thought,but it's all out there on the net and in books.
The internet is certainly an eye opener, but make no mistake it's a long journey to truly learn the many truths about 'the truth'. BUT I can assure you that in the process you will be left to hold a large bag load of emotions and decisions to sort out.
The only reason I continued to pay any attention to these sites is precisely because I found ex-witnesses to be undeserving of the labels the Society places upon them such as apostates or liars or faithless and ungodly and that they should be shunned like lepers. Most are wonderful brothers and sisters like any witness but may I add without the judgemental and sometimes arrogant attitudes.
There I've had my say for the day, thanks for reading and again welcome.
Best wishes to you,