HELLO TO ALL!!!!
SINCE I FOUND YOU THE OTHER DAY I WAS ITCHING TO TELL MY STORY SO HERE GOES:
RAISED IN JW FAMILY DAD ELDER BOTH PARENTS PIONEERS TOTAL OF 8 KIDS
COMPLETLY RIDICULED IN SCHOOL SET APART DIFFERENT UNABLE TO MAKE AND KEEP FRIENDS BECAUSE THEY WERENT ALLOWED TO COME OVER OR CALL AND I COULDNT GO THERE I LEARNED VERY YOUNG HOW TO BE SNEAKY. THAT IS NOT NECCISARIALLY (SP) A TRAIT I WANT MY KIDS TO LEARNSO NOT ONLY AM I SHUT OUT OF THE "WORLD" BUT WE COULDNT LET JW'S COME OVER EITHER BECAUSE WE WERE THE TYPE OF FAMILY THAT DIDNT LET OUT OUR SECRETS SOME OF YOU MAY KNOW WHAT I MEAN
WE ATTENDED SEVERAL HALLS IN THE SURROUNDING AREA AND ALWAYS HIGH TAILED IT WHEN THEY STARTED TO FIGURE US OUT
SO NEEDLESS TO SAY THIS TAUGHT ME WHEN THE GOING GETS TUFF UP AND RUN:)
EVENTUALLY MY DAD WAS DISFELLOWSHIPPED AND MOM SAID IT WAS OUR FAULT BUT I DISTINCLY REMEMBER THE DAY HE WAS WE WERE ALL IN THE FRONT OF THE HALL PLAYING WITH THE OTHER ELDERS KIDS THERE WAS LOTS OF US PROB 20 OR MORE DAD WAS IN COMITEE WHEN WE HEARD LOUD BANG AND DAD SCREAMED "F*** ALL OF YOU"
THAT WAS THE LAST TIME I SAW THOSE KIDS WE WERE ON TO A KNEW HALL:)
WELL MY PARENTS STILL DRAGGED US BACK AND FORTH THIS TIME OVER 1 1/2 HOURS ONE WAY TO NEW ONE
THEY BOTH ATTENDED COLLEGE AT THIS TIME TO FURTHER THEIR CARREER AND WE WERE LEFT WITH ALOT MORE FREEDOM AND STARTED DOING AWFUL EVIL THINGS LIKE HAVING FRIENDS OUTSIDE OF JWS THEN I REALIZED THE "WORLD" IS NOT AN AWFUL PLACE AND THESE PEOPLE ARE REALLY GOOOOD PEOPLE WITH GOOD HEARTS I COULDNT FATHOM IN MY LITTLE BRAIN WHY GOD WOULD DESTROY THEM STILL CANT FIGURE THAT ONE OUT!!
THE ONLY SCRIPTURE IN THE BIBLE THAT SCREAMS AT ME IS "GOD IS LOVE"
IF YOU UNDERSTAND THAT THEN EVERYTHING ELSE FALLS INTO PLACE BUT NOT WITH JW'S THEY ARE SO CONTRADICTING EVEN A YOUNG CHILD CAN FIGURE IT OUT WHEN I WOULD ASK MY MOM VERY SERIOUS QUESTIONS ABOUT DOCTRINE I WAS ALWAYS TOLD I NEEDED TO GO PRAY BECAUSE I DIDNT HAVE ANY FAITH.THEY WERE NEVER ANSWERED
EVENTUALLY MY DAD WAS REINSTATED AND WE ALL KEPT GOING TO MEETINGS LIKE A GOOD FAMILY. BUT THE SEED WAS PLANTED INOUR LIVES AND HYPOCRISY SO RAMPANT IN OUR HOUSE I DESPISE IT NOW I CAN TELL YOU WITHIN 10 MIN OF TALKING TO SOMEONE IF THEY ARE A HYPOCRITE
ONE BY ONE OUR FAMILY CRUMBLED.
I WAS BAPTIZED FOR ALL THE WRONG REASONS AND ONE DAY JUST LEFT OF COURSE I WAS BLACKBALLED BY MY FAMILY AND FORMER FRIENDS BUT NEVER DISFELLOWSHIPPED I WONDER WHAT THEY HAVE ME DOWN AT ON MY PUBLISHER CARD:)
SORRY THIS IS GETTING WINDED BUT I WILL TELL YOU I WAS THINKING ABOUT STUDYING AGAIN WHEN I GOT THE NEWS THAT MY SISTER THE PERFECT ONE THE ONLY REAL ACTIVE WITNESS BESIDE MY MOM WAS GOING TO BE DISFELLOWSHIPPED!!!!!!!!!! WHAT COULD MY PERFECT PIONEER SISTER DONE? WELL FOR YEARS NOW YES YEARS SHE HAS BEEN LIVING A DOUBLE LIFE WITH DRUNKENESS AND PREMARITAL SEX NOW SHE WAS PREGNANT!! MY MOTHER RAN TO THE RESCUE AND POOR GIRL IS NOW REINSTATED AND BACK IN GOOD STANDING AFTER LESS THAN 6MONTHS.
THIS IS THE HYPOCRACY THAT I HATE AND CAN NOT UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLE IN THIS RELIGION CAN REALLY UNDERSTAND THE SCRIPTURE"GOD IS LOVE"
I DO AND LIVE MY LIFE BY IT I AM NOT EVIL TO ANYONE OR LOOK DOWN ON OTHERS NOR AM I HAUGHTY OF MYSELF NOR DO I LIE OR CHEAT OR TRY TO DECIEVE PEOPLE I LOVE GOD I KNOW GOD IS LOVE AND LIVE MY LIFE BY THIS
I CURRENTLY AM NOT ATTENDING CHURCH BUT I HAVE GOD IN MY HEART AND "BY MY FRUITS" YOU CAN TELL THAT I AM A GOOD PERSON
SHORT AND SWEET OF IT:
THE JW LIFE TAUGHT ME MANY THINGS NON OF WHICH I WILL PASS ON TO MY CHILDREN AND NONE THAT I HAVE ADOPTED!!
THANX FOR LETTING ME JOIN AND WOULD LOVE TO HEAR BACK FROM YOU:)