I respect those that have made up their mind, and left JW's and started a new life. I have thought long and hard about this, and read hundreds of your posts.
For now, I am going to stay in, and try to little by little help my family and friends get out. This could be a complete wimp-out, spineless move on my part, or it could be that I have the guts and the tenacity to really help people to get free while I am still in. I am not sure yet which one of those I am. Probably the former.
But for the present anyway, I think those of us that are undercover should EMBRACE THE HYPOCRISY.
I mean really people, those of us that are still commenting, going in service, what are we doing? ARE WE OUT OF OUR MINDS? WE KNOW ITS A LIE AND YET WE ARE COMMENTING AT THE MEETINGS AND GOING IN SERVICE! WHAT?
I actually have some bad days where I think about how I no longer have the paradise to look forward to. (My previous topic).
But other times it's actually kind of fun to comment at the meetings, go out in service, and spout out "The Faithful and Discreet Slave knows what we need" and , "The Governing Body is really being used by Jehovah in this time of the end." "We must follow the celestial chariot no matter where it leads us." As I sit there at the Kingdom Hall and comment, or I sit at a JW gathering and tell a missionary experience, I just can't believe I am sitting there, and doing that. But it all has a purpose, at least I hope this will work. I listen, and I wait for the opportunity, and then I ask a question or two. Then after a while, I drop it. Questions are what stayed in my mind, and got me to really think, I hope it will work on them.
Last night at the JW gathering I went to I actually had fun talking about the news from Bethel and how SO MANY BETHELITES ARE GLAD TO LEAVE BETHEL AND GO INTO THE FIELD, OF COURSE ITS NOT ABOUT THE CONTRIBUTIONS, ITS ABOUT THE GREAT NEED OUT THERE IN THE TERRITORY.
I even asked the host questions about how he embraced the truth, and I asked the other Russian brother stuff too. I was asked to tell a few experiences about my missionary assignment, I got into it. I want to stay in that circle so that I can slowly get some to wake up out of their cognitive dissonance. But that means I still need to pretend...... So what do I have, "Cognitive Dissonant-Dissonance?"
So, to all of you that are STILL IN AND PRETENDING, embrace the hypocrisy , people!