I read the last two posts on my previous thread last night and I thought about posting, but to be honest I found them hurtful and I was angry enough that my post would have been very harsh, so I took a step back and figured I could let it go until today when I wouldn’t feel the need to really say what I’m thinking about the previous posts.
Purplesofa, the bible study was actually a walk in the park, we went out to lunch and just talked about the economy, Obama and saving money, we went over maybe five paragraphs in the new book and that was that, all I did was recite the answers straight from the book. As to why I went to the meeting, well what can I say? I’m like super interested in becoming a pioneer and maybe going to Bethel!
The serious answer to that is the following, a lot of these sisters are very old, they don’t drive and they are not married to someone who would willingly drive them to the hall, eight years ago when I was a teenager they were still in good health, they could take the bus or god even walk to the hall, but eight years takes a toll and some of these sisters have seen drastic changes in their health, some of them can’t even drive, one of the sisters that used to drive them out in service and to meetings is terminally ill, she can’t even eat solid foods any more and is confined to her bed, so when I was asked to drive them to the hall I did and I don’t regret that because I extended to them the kindness I hope someone would extend to my mother, my sisters or even myself.
Here’s the thing ladies, I finally learned the difference between being a child and being an adult, children live their lives expecting to be catered to, it’s always about them and what they want and need, and to hell with everyone else because it’s all about them. As an adult sometimes you have to do unpleasant things for the people that you love, I had to clean my sisters surgical wounds on her legs for three months, I absolutely hated it because I can’t stomach gore but I still did it because that’s what adults do, they grow some and suck it up. Don’t you get that? Don’t you understand that these lovely ladies did not change? I did, it was my choice to leave and it is my choice to lend a hand to them if I’m able to because I can step back and clearly see that the world does not revolve around me and my wants and needs.
If I had to drive them to meetings or take them to the doctor or get them dinner or help clean their homes, I would do it because its basic human compassion it’s what you do for people regardless of whether you believe in the same god or not. As a person it would be shameful if I refused to help based on something as silly as religion.
I know that many of you will chime in asking if these women would do the same for me and I think all I can say is that it doesn’t matter to me if they would, I’m not responsible for them and their actions but I am responsible for me and I think I would have a hard time sleeping if I knew I could help someone and refused to do it simply to spare myself from a few uncomfortable minutes.
I have a spine.