Not to make light of a very important illness, but I have, I believe 'Grandmother's Postnatal Depression'!!
I feel totally taken advantage of and a laughing stock and a 'nothing'. Infact I feel totally unappreciated.
I am looking after my sweet little grandaughter for around 60 hours a week! She is a little sweet heart but such hard work! I had agreed to look after her part time, NOT full time, while her mother got a part time job. But her mother went back to full time employment, at a very good rate of pay by the way, and I now have the baby for about 10 - 12 hours a day. I am so trapped. They pay me nothing and I still have my own household to run, of five other people to take care of. I lost my evening job and so I have NO MONEY at all now, only my husbands wage coming in. What a nightmare!
I am so unhappy with the situation but can't believe that they would actually expect me to do this hard job of work for nothing! My daughter in law handed me fifty pounds last month to get some bits I might need for the baby when she's with me, but that's all! I get nothing!
I have been very angry with every one in my home this weekend. They have said that I must say something about this situation but I'm concerned that my son and daughter in law will throw a strop and then we won't be permitted to see the baby again. However, I cannot carry on in this trapped nightmare.
I have a plan!
It's a crazy plan!
I thought I might run away from everyone and perhaps do a 'John Darwin' and get a canoe. At the point of thinking of this, I realised how desperate I had become! I expressed how unhappy I am to my immeadiate family and they can come up with no suggestions to help me out of this.
I've warned them that I will 'change my reality' and leave them all, but they don't seem to understand my nightmare situation!!
Would you expect your mother to look after your children full time........for nothing?
My next stop is to look up 'Canoes' on google!
Don't say I didn't warn them all!