Thanks. Okay, I'll share this with you:
Bill, my step-dad, had already tried once. Thankfully an overdose of Xanex doesn't kill it just makes you very sleepy for 3 days. I worked nights back then and had lunch with him 2 or 3 time a week. Long story short, I knew he'd do it again. He was looking for a reason, no matter what I said, however I cajoled, used logic, anything and everything in my bag and it just bounced off.
One day he came over, bewailing his decision to spend his money down to care for his wife who had Alzheimers (despite the fact I had found him an attorney who arranged to have Medicare pay for the exact same bed, he insisted on using his own money).
Finally I had enough and for the first time, I really got angry with him and told him we would do what the attorney had recommended.
He hung his head, and shuffled out my front door.
He went to Academy Sports and bought a gun, went home and shot himself.
Bill was looking for a reason, and I stupidly provided it.
As I say, it's a helluva thing to live with.
And so, please know my heart goes out to you.
Chris