Soon. I'll be free from the bondage of the Watchtower pharisees.
After over a year now of researching my belief in God and the Watchtower Society, I'm convinced that I can't live my life untill I'm out.
They FINALLY just a few weeks ago deleted me as an MS, over SIX MONTHS after I asked them to. That's a big relief. They didn't get the hint from my 2 hrs. a month in field service, or the fact that I havn't commented in forever. They still ask me to adjust the mics occasionally and to be an attendant (both things that are usually reserved for "strong" brothers, haha). They apparently havn't noticed that I don't pay attention during the meetings, I just sit there reading my Bible, reviewing all the scriptures that prove their cherished doctrines are pure manmade bullsh*t.
The hounders already shun me. Or at least the two that have all the "power". One hates my wife and I (for no reason mind you, but he literally hates everyone, what a fine Christian he is. He's REPEATEDLY slandared my wife and I as well as our respective families), the other Elder (our PO) just doesn't know what the hell to do with me and would rather pretend I don't exist because I went from being the most reliable and active MS in the hall to "bump-on-a-log" in a matter of weeks. From HERO to ZERO, at least in their eyes. The other Elders are really just MS's that have been granted the title of "Elder" (kinda like the Mormon kids that show up at your door, and with similar levels of Bible knoweledge too), but I'm super nice to them, if only just to confuse the two Elder Lords at the top.
I still enjoy speaking to the elderly brothers and sisters, and I "encourage" them and tell them how nice it is to see them there. Everyone still has a very high opinion of me. And I want to keep it that way so that when I leave no one can say, "oh, I could tell he was acting like an apostate anyway, gnashing his teeth and all", although they probably still will. I talk to the young ones in the hall slyly encouraging them to go to college, but doing so in a way that wouldn't raise any eyebrows. All the while maintaining plausiable deniability. I like to join in their conversations about the latest "violent" video games they're not supposed to be playing. Hehe
And my wife is still committed to the faith. But although knowing I don't believe anymore, she's disillusioned with the Org. herself. I can tell she's tired of the silly rules (she doesn't follow a good chunk of them, we watch "R" movies and occasionally play the what many JWs would consider "violent" video games). But she still believes it's the truth. I guess you could say she loves "the Truth" and "the Friends" but dislikes the legalistic organization and the pompus Elders. But doggoneit. She only follws the societys recommended study schedule, and no more. She doesn't do DEEP study!!! I wish she did because that's the biggest thing that started me on the road to apostasy! The fact that when you really get at the foundation of the societys dogma, and follow their clims to their logical conclusions, you find they are inconsistent and founded on baseless assumptions! She takes their word for it, and that of her mom, who happens to be a wonderful preson but is a staunch believer. She's an incredibly smart girl, but has willingly handed over her reason and thinking ability to a group of stuffy old men.
Anyway... I think theres a good chance of getting her out, but I have to be very careful.
I wanted to ask A@G to outline what topics he went over with his wife and which ones were most effective. I've been particularly inspired by his courage, and since our situations are similar I'd really love his input.
Thanks everyone, i look forward to reading your comments and support.