Right now, at this point in my life, i feel like i should be Angry, Sad, Upset, annoyed, whatever emotion that most of you guys here feel or have felt.
But the overwhelming feeling i get, and i have got since waking up, is indifference.
I think that this might be my subconscious coping mechanism. When i go to the meetings or take part in any other WT related activity, i don't care. I just really couldn't care less.
I mean, i do CARE, but i think it's more a fascination now about the whole thing. It actually does interest me, the ins and outs of the Cult. The mind control. The Thought Control. The Blind Obedience. But i just don't care that i was once fully part of it.
Is this normal? I've been thinking maybe it's depression? Maybe it's relief that the world isn't going to come to a destructive end in my life time (i hope).
Maybe I've always felt this way, but never really analysed my feelings properly.
Just looking for anyone out there who feels the same?...