So going off all my meds proved one huge things to me....I thought I was just depressed....almost constantly...and not bi-polar....but after going off all meds.......life was good.....real good ....oh so incredibly flucking good....that it hit finally hit me....I really should not be feeling this good...so could I hardly needed any sleep or food! Everything was 20,000 times better than it should be......even my grilled salmon, garlic mashed potatoes, and steamed broccoli with lime was soooo good I let every bite linger for at least a minute!?!?!....yeah weird.
So it ended in a grand climax that forced me to rush back to the doc and confess my ignoring his advice....so we started all over and I begged him for a soft landing and not a crash and please no pills that make me feel ANYTHING (except depressed)....and this tiny pill just knocked me out for 16 hours straight....maybe my body needed the rest....but sure hope this is a short side effect...still groggy, but not real depressed at all.
Life should be very simple or very complicated real soon. I am going to marriage counseling...if I have to go by myself at first..fine...cause then I can blame it on the counselor for making me separate if wife refuses to join us (cause I have no balls and just big heart). Either the counselor will help me to cope with being in a very odd marriage arrangement (at least I think one-in-one-out is odd).......or she will get my wife to at least take a peek if not explore my reasons for knowing JW is a cult....and she will wake up, and I will really really love this new awakened wife, and we will live happily ever after....ahhhh....I just love happy ends.
Stay tuned to, "As the Oompa Turns" cause I am going to post all of this new experience....................oompa