I am almost a Master member here on JWD now. I feel so much more comfortable here than I did at first. I love visiting here several times a day and do not mind even the negative comments we get on here anymore. I would not leave this group for anything now but it has its consequences LOL.
The problem I am having is that for the past couple of weeks my dreams are now involving something JW related almost every night. I haven't dreamed about being a JW or anything about it in years and now I am back to JW stuff in my dreams. I just have to tell you about this very vivid dream I had last night.
I was out in The Service with 3 other JW women, I was the spiritually weak one (as usual) and I didn't have my heart in it, I didn't like going out in service and just did it to keep up appearances with my friends and parents. The women I was with were all gung ho to get out there and start knocking and presenting the Awake and Watchtower Mags. I felt a bit embarrassed that I hadn't even read one article in them so I didn't know what to say at the door. They said I had to take the first door but I was so relieved when they said I should go to the door by myself. I guess they thought this was some kind of punishment or test because they would be watching me from the street to see how I did. I thought I will wing it and no one will be the wiser. A little girl comes to the door and I very nicely asked her if her Daddy or Mommy was home and commented on how pretty she looked today. Her Dad came to the door, a gruff looking bearded man, looked a bit like a professer. I felt intimidated by his worldy know it all way about him. What do you want he says. Well I present the Awake magazine and feel embarrassed about it because I know its such a stupid magazine I say well I am here to offer you these Magazines, they have timely articles about things going on in the world today. I am hoping he is not going to ask me about any specific content. Lucky me, He says ok here is 10 cents like he just wants to get rid of me, I give him the magazines and then he says, Wait. I can't afford to give you 10 cents for these give the money back to me, I am not sure if I will like them so here take this instead. He tears off a half a piece of bread that is on the counter and hands that to me. I just want to place the magazines so the women I am with will think I am with it in the religion so I say OK. But then my mind does a about turn (in the dream) and I say well if you want to just give me bread then you really need to read this, I quickly slip a tract into the first page of the Awake magazine. Please take the time to read it, its really why I am here but don't tell anyone that is JW about this information tract. The tract was 10 reasons why JWs are a dangerous Cult.
I leave and go back to the women feeling all happy that I had put one over on these smug self righteous women. They were surprised I had no problem placing the literature even though they knew I wasn't really spiritually strong in the religion. My dream ended there with me feeling so good because I could secretly Use the Field Service to incriminate the JW religion.
I woke up thinking, wouldn't that be great if some of the ones that are still in but don't believe the religion anymore could slip in apostate stuff into the literature. LOL
I know crazy dream but it was so real. Anyone else have JW related dreams lately because of filling your mind with JWD discussions.