Hello Friends, this is your Vitameatavegamin girl. By the way, don't forget to watch the I Love Lucy marathon on TV Land starting October 15th, it should be a hoot. 50th anniversary of the show.
Anyway, lately I have been doing more thinking about everything. It seems my posts are always of a complaining nature and I feel like all I do is whine about all the rotten things that have happened to me as a JW. I think maybe at times I should lighten up as everyone in this world makes mistakes. Setting aside all the garabage, I really find myself questioning alot of the teachings of the JWs. But from a religious standpoint this is all I know. I feel other Churches do not have the truth- the Witnesses seem to have as close to it as I can find. But along with what I agree with, there is so much I dont.
I want to make it through Armageddon. I do want a new world with no suffering or death. I really believe from my heart in these things. I am afraid constantly. There is this nagging doubt that I am not doing the right thing. What if God expects us to preach about the last days? What if meetings are our only lifeline when the end comes? I know there are many out there that do not even belive in God anymore. But I firmly believe that this is not all there is for us. I think something better is in the future. I just want to know that I am doing the right things. I try my hardest to live by Bible standards, I consider myself to be a Christian. But the Bible does say that is not for man to judge us. Only God can read hearts. I guess Witnesses feel you have to go through the Elders for your worthiness. I dont know, I feel so confused. Is there anyone else out there going through what I am?? Please let me know your thoughts.
Thanks so much!